| where you are here. |
[04 Mar 2006|10:08am] |
my favorite place is still and silent darkness
i can wrap my hands around myself
and curl into the imaginary.
i can feel your breath come and the walls expand to you.
encompassed by warmth
i feel.
you are here
my eyes close and my warm hands creep around
i feel nothing
and i remember it is only imaginary.
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| this weekend: |
[12 Dec 2005|02:11pm] |
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i made two scarves.
and went to urbana and carbondale.
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[12 Nov 2005|12:16am] |
i can feel the road beneath me.
and the wind beside me,
and accross my fingertips.
i can close my eyes and be anywhere.
there is an ocean of freedom inside of us.
fall back
and
swim.
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| morning. |
[19 Sep 2005|01:01pm] |
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after it rains,
the autumn scent.
while my feet touch earth
i watch to see
the flowers smile.
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[11 Sep 2005|12:23pm] |
yesterday was ajna's birthday party.
it was really nice. kristin and alarik and lisa harper came, and it was really nice to see them.
alarik is getting so big, and he is very sweet.
him and ajna are going to be best friends.
its true.
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| happy happy birthday. |
[10 Sep 2005|12:03am] |
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today is ajna's birthday.
it is midnight, and i am waiting for his cake to finish baking so i can go to bed.
i am also drinking hazelnut coffee from the co-op in carbondale and it is amazing.
after i wake up, i am making guacomole and going to mike and jamie's to decorate for his party.
then, we are having the party
and then i am comming home and going to bed again.
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[01 Sep 2005|01:21am] |
tonight barbara took me out and it was really nice.
she helped me dye my hair
and then she gave me a bunch of clothes and a ring that is really beautiful.
then we went to a bar and i laughed a lot, and it felt really good.
then she took me home
and we listened to death cab for cutie, and somebody should have told me how good they are a long time ago.
she gave me two cds
and i am going upstairs to listen to them.
and then i will fall asleep
and tomorrow is carbondale.
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[31 Aug 2005|07:19pm] |
tonight my mom took ajna to my aunts house, so i have the night off.
tomorrow night i am going to carbondale with jenny and mike knapp to visit lisa. i will be gone until monday.
next week ajna will be a year old. and that blows my mind.
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[28 Aug 2005|01:40pm] |
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ajna and i are at my moms house.
we will be here at least through the 10th.
yesterday i went to veggie fest and ate really good indian food and got a bag of free grapes.
then carol came over and we talked and watched the goonies and she left me a ben harper dvd to watch.
and then pat henning picked me up and we went for coffee and we sat up and talked until two thirty. it was nice and he made me feel better.
now i am waiting to see if my mom will take me to a meditation seminar
and then i am going to my cousin's 9th or 10th birthday party.
maybe tonight i will see jenny.
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| so long la poeta |
[19 Aug 2005|10:52pm] |
at night things are still
no voices,
only thunder echoes through me.
i find a void
impossible
rock solid
and uncarvable.
everybody sleeps
not silent sleep
they walk
and moan in universal disharmony.
i asked when we would ever be happy
two people
picturesque
like memories of eachother under moons
or the sunrise.
and i remembered in those memories i asked
'when will we ever be happy'
and no sound came
only thunder to echo through me.
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[05 Jun 2005|08:19am] |
i am back at my moms.
so everybody should call me right now.
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| drive by life. |
[24 May 2005|09:50am] |
the wind is strong
and there is a lot of rain.
the days are cold
and the nights
from the window
the ocean crashes hard into the marsh
and the trees blow violent against grey sky.
i see the lighthouse through the fog
and the birds fly, long wings
from the day
into the night.
ajna has his first tooth
and he likes to bite.
it is cute, but it hurts.
i think we are leaving here soon.
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| ADDRESS |
[12 May 2005|01:55pm] |
11 bancroft point road
Grand Manan Island
New Brusnwick Canada
ESG 4C1
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| a quote. |
[31 Mar 2005|09:04pm] |
"wisdom tells me i am nothing.
love tells me i am everything.
between the two, my life flows."
-a great indian master.
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| oh the horror. |
[25 Mar 2005|10:47pm] |
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SO
i have myspace
but i cant figure out how to customize my profile page.
somebody help me.
PLEASE HELP ME!
goodnight.
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| here we go. |
[18 Mar 2005|08:22am] |
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Do you like your body?: im comefortable in it. but i wish my lungs worked better.
Ethnicity: italian. norwegian. sweedish. danish. irish. german.
Hair style: messy and full of knots.
Tattoos: none.
Piercings:ears, twice. but i think they closed.
Fave lipstick color: chapstick.
Fave nailpolish color: none.
Fave makeup brand: i dont wear makeup. but i like carmex a lot.
Are you a good student?: i was probably about average.
Nickname(s): brit.
Do you believe in reincarnation? yes.
What your sign and does it fit you?: gemini. perfectly.
Wheels: a red station wagon. and its hottter than barbaras.
Do you have a deep dark secret no one knows except you?: yes.
Fave pair of underwear: they have polka dots.
Movie you saw last: i think it was my life as a dog.
Book you read last:i'm reading the tibetan book of the dead. but i forgot it in canton.
Three favorite bands: the string cheese incident. peter paul and mary. miles davis.
Good songs: peter paul and mary: the other side of this life. and when i die. string cheese: round the wheel. simon and garfunkle: homeward bound. yonder mountain string band: half moon rising. traffic jam.
Fave beverage: apple juice, tea, water.
Fave alcoholic drink: white russian.
Fave food: blueberry yogurt.
Fave candy: pocky.
Fave colors: i like green and brown
Fave director: i dont know.
Fave season: spring and fall.
Fave cartoon: Aqua Teen Hunger Force
Fave t-shirt: i have a plain brown t-shirt and its great.
Fave pair of jeans: these ones that are actually my moms but i plan to steal them. muhahaha.
Fave jacket/coat: my poncho.
Fave article of clothing: this skirt that is colorful and great.
Fave place to buy clothes: thrift stores.
Fave designer: i dont have one.
Fave model: i dont know.
Dream job: i'd like to have my own shop. or be a teacher. i'd also just like to sell grilled cheese sandwiches at shows.
Have you ever lost someone you loved?: yes.
Night or day?: both.
Top or bottom? : bottom.
Coke or pepsi? : coke. but i'd rather have ginger ale.
Number of pillows: 1
What are you wearing right now?: a green skirt. a blue tank top. and a hoodie.
When do you get up in the morning?: about 7:30.
Spell your first name back wards: yenittirb
The story behind your LJ user name: there isn't one.
How old?: 19.
Where do you live?: right now i'm at my moms house.
4 words that sum you up: i am hot stuff.
:::::Describe your:::::
Wallet: i dont have anything to put in a wallet.
Hairbrush: i dont have a hairbrush.
Toothbrush: its red. and its new. !!!
Jewelry worn daily: a wooden braclet that cory made. and beaded necklace that cory also made.
Pillow cover: i think its tan.
Blanket: i have a lot of blankets. my favorite is my purple baja blanket. its great.
Coffee cup: it's white and it says 'call your dad' in black letters.
Sunglasses: i dont have any.
Underwear: i'm not wearing any ;)
Shoes: red flip flops. or tan moccisons.
Cologne/Perfume: patchouli.
CD in stereo right now: this cd that is supposed to make you sleep.
WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
In my mouth: a cough drop that kelly bought me. thanks kelly!
In my head: a peter paul and mary song.
Wishing: that my car would make it to eartheart.
After this: going to take a bath.
Talking to: no one
Eating: cough drop.
Fetishes: i dont know that i have any.
If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason?: i dont think i would murder anybody.
Is next to you: no one
Some of your favorite movies: the big lebowski. pretty in pink. sixteen candles. the batchler. fried green tomatoes. the breakfast club. breakfast at tiffany's. monty pithon and the holy grail. say anything. amélie. ghost world.
Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming months: sun dresses. that's going to be great.
Something that you are deathly afraid of: cancer.
Do you like candles: yes
Do you like hot wax: I like to squish it in my fingers.
Do you like incense: yes.
Do you like the taste of blood: if it's my own and like, I cut myself on accident and don't have a tissue. other than that...no.
Do you believe in love: yes
Do you believe in soul mates: i believe in fate and reason.
Do you believe in love at first sight: i don't know.
Do you believe in forgiveness: yes.
Do you believe in God: i belive in the universe.
What do you want done with your body when you die: cory told me about how the vikings used to take the bodies and put them in a boat with a bunch of explosives and push them out into the water when i the sun was setting and then when the boat was lined up with the sun on the horizon they would shoot arrows of fire to the boat and it would burn down with the sun. thats what i want.
Who is your worst enemy?: I don't have one.
Who is the last person you kissed?: cory.
If you could have any animal for a pet: i have a dog. and i like him a lot.
Ever been to Firenze?: no.
Can you eat with chopsticks: yes.
What's your favorite coin?: the chocolate kind. mmm. mmm.
What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to?: i'd rather live in the country somehwere.
What are some of your favorite pig out foods?: i like yogurt. and cereal. hummus. and good tortilla chips.
What's something that you wish people would understand?: that materialism and 'secrurity' is such a waste of life.
What's something you wish you could understand better?: a lot of things.
Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time?: brian skelton.
Whats one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow?: i want to go somewhere neat.
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| it's on. |
[17 Mar 2005|02:29pm] |
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i am so mad.
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| thursday, march seventeenth. oh five. |
[17 Mar 2005|01:05am] |
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tonight was nice.
kelly and i talked and it felt good.
she gave me strawberry koala yummies.
which is great.
i am feeling sick and out of breath.
and ajna has been coughing.
i am getting to know myself
and he is what i've found:
i like car rides
and the moon.
i like photographs
and taking them.
i like watching you paint.
honey wheat pretzels.
and mid day naps.
i like to make juice
and write poetry.
and sleep on your chest while you drive.
and watch the clouds make pictures.
i like to go for walks.
and think of nothing.
i like to listen to the moment.
i like jeans.
but not more than skirts.
and peacock feathers
and the sound of a heartbeat.
and my sons hands when they reach for me.
i like my cat.
i like unexpected phone calls
and bare feet.
i like bluegrass.
and jazz the best.
especially in small towns
on dreary days
or on a dreary ride.
i like the silence
and the dark.
and the sun on the tile floor in the daytime.
i like dancing
and jokes
and my stepsister
and her hugs.
i like open windows
i like pocky.
and koala yummies, of course.
i like to sleep on the floor.
and sit on it.
i like my hands in pictures.
but not in person.
i like flowers and love poems and mix tapes and sex.
and i like missing you, because it's new.
and it makes me appreciate.
i like the universe.
i dont like sore throats. and cold mornings. or cold nights. or winter when it should be getting warm.
i dont like shallow breath.
and anger.
i've been getting to know myself.
and my world.
and now: sleep.
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| im at my moms |
[15 Mar 2005|06:28pm] |
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and i miss cory.
hi cory.
i miss you.
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